“I got put on a new antidepressant and I was on it for a month. My doctor told it me it was supposed to kick in by then. I was having really bad suicidal thoughts, so I went to the doctor’s office and told them it wasn’t working. But, my usual doctor wasn’t there. In walked this 50-year-old man. He told me that I didn’t have depression, that it was probably teenage hormones, and, ‘maybe exercise.’
And then, two days later, I ended up in the hospital because I tried to commit. I talked to so many different doctors, and one walked in and asked, ‘Are you taking any medicine?’ And I said, ‘No, just Welllbutrin.’ While I was sitting there crying my eyes out because I literally wanted to fucking die, he looked at me in my face and said, ‘You’re not taking acne medicine? You know you can see a doctor for that, right?'”
If you are thinking about suicide or just need to talk to someone, you can speak to someone by calling the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) and or by texting HOME to 741741, the Crisis Text Line. And here are suicide helplines outside the US.